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My Birthday. 2nd Decade.

Sunday, January 28, 2007

"This will be a beginning of a new decade of your life, one that will change everything."
Not from anyone famous, just part of a friend's sms birthday greeting to me.

For whatever reason, I seem to be so unbearable to part with "19-year-old". For the past many years, perhaps since I was 7, then from the age 13, I never know life could be so fun, so exciting, so much memories to be cummulated, and then to be kept, now to refresh and finally concealed before the next period of refreshing. When friends gathered, talks about the past seems never-ending and always so-yesterday, till someone mention about hey that was like 4years ago. WOW! Thanks buddies.

Yup, very true a beginning. Let's peek into my mini-celebration.

My Birthday Week.

1) Crazy. I woke up @530am on mon. Went for an hour jog. Had a "craving" for a movie --- Pans Labyrinth @PS @ 1110 am. Saw Desmond Koh and Jamie Teo filming some programme. Group study @3pm @Hougang Mall.

2) Insane. I met Lynette for 3 consecutive days & each meet-up was more than half a day.

3) Went to Mr Soo's house --- visit him and his family. Baby Estelle is so active, so cute, so distracted. Her birthday's on 25Jan, closer to mine than Azhar's. Ha.

4) On my birthday, went to Mind's Cafe for a mini-celebration. Yes, it's healthy. And as usual, it's really funny. Entertaining. Very. I just love this people. A lot.
Dinner was daddy's cooking with crabs and prawns and stuff. Yummy yummy.
Supper was out with a friend @ MacDonald. Simple. And there I spent the last minutes of my birthday.
Everything according to plan. Such a smooth day I have. Blessed.

5) Of course, how can my birthday be such a blessing without the smses and songs and gifts and cake.
(P.S. i'm still waiting for some of my belated ones. )

To you, thanks for organising.
To you, thanks for attending.
To you, thanks for making time for my birthday.
To everyone, a very big THANK YOU.
Thanks for the smses and gifts. And of course, the joy.
Muacks

To me,

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY.

Everything In Its Time

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say ir's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

I will still be who I am

-Sign Off @ 3:47 PM :)

19th Year

Friday, January 26, 2007

The last few minutes of my 19th year is spent online. Kinda jus got home.
Tomorrow, rather in 10minutes time, a brand new decade.
I'll have a new blogskin too.
Till then.

-Sign Off @ 11:45 PM :)

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Hmmm, i never know i love chocolate ice cream. Perhaps occasional indulgence.
Dramatic. Powerful. Flirty.
Me?
*faintz*

-Sign Off @ 10:26 AM :)

Ice cream

You Are Chocolate Ice Cream

Dramatic. Powerful. Flirty.

-Sign Off @ 10:25 AM :)

Go Green

Friday, January 19, 2007

Upon watching THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW for the seventh time on Sunday, one of the dialogues caught my attention.
"People will have to stay indoor and burn whatever they can to keep warm. After that, they pray."

And quoted from Pearl Harbor, "No radio, no transmitter, we're back in 19th century."

Some time back, perhaps most of us had the experience that though we are using broadboard or anything faster than that, the Taiwan earthquake that led to damages of the underwater cable, made us feel like we were using dial-up and there were many sites that we could hardly enter. The repair process was also kind of delayed due to further natural factors.

Man never fails to improve on technology since it is mentioned that we are the modern species. We invaded spaces of the animal kingdom and even the dead --- mummy and cementries. People broke into "coffins" of mummy knowing that they can find jewels and precious out of them, and of course, not remembering that they have destroy something that has escaped death. It's said by many historians and archelogists that mummy is the "preserve" of the living. They need not be cemented nor buried with the fear of being invaded by flesh-eating maggots. They are so nicely, in fact to me, perfectly, preserved that they actually aid in the future studies of the past. To support the living population, the dead have to make space. I got nothing against that. It's just a matter of fact that we got to be practical that's all.

Most of the time our reliance on technology leads us to many handicaps as well. I'm relying on technology as well. Yes, perhaps I can live a couple of weeks without my computer, couples of days without my food, weeks without tv, but after that period of time, I need these "necessities" back to my life. I just simply find it sad that Man is attempting to outbeat nature with more and more advanced technology and at the same time, destroying earth.
It's like by the end of the day, after doing whatever we can, we pray and hope that it will succeed.
By the end of the day, should there be any disasters, we pray.

GO GREEN!!!
Random thoughts.
As quoted from Azhar's blog who quoted from Trilogy of the Sword of Shannara (Book 1), "Science has only existed for two reasons - to find a better way to live and a faster way to kill."

-Sign Off @ 11:14 PM :)

ARGH!!!

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

ARGH!!!
I feel this on-off giddy sensation throughout today. Someone must have set a giddy spell on me, again. Freak. The last time because of this giddy thingy, I got fever. Now what. Ok I'm rumbling on and on and on. Pardon me for the day.

10days till then.
What will there be for me that day.
Somewhat nervous.
Somewhat not as excited as I was in the past.

Jokingly, those are the symptoms of getting old.

-Sign Off @ 8:49 PM :)

Stunning News

Saturday, January 13, 2007

An extract from Azhar's blog which I couldn't help but agree totally. It's just totally absurd, totally.

"Was out with the MJ-Bowen group of people at PS today. We had an early dinner and went to Ben & Jerry at The Cathay to chill. Had a good time, catching up and being entertained by the live band over there. However, I was informed that my secondary school, Bowen Sec, had changed it's logo, motto, vision and mission - I was taken aback.

If I had a say, I would 110% not agree with the idea of revamping the school to such an extent. I know that he has a very positive aim to ensure that the students there excel in their academic performance and that I agree whole heartedly with him. But going to an extent of changing the logo? I think it is absurd!

To me, changing the logo and motto basically deleted the history of Bowen. It is as good as calling the school a different name! As an ex-student, how could I say that I was from that school when the logo, motto, vision and mission are not similar to the one I was instilled with? A simple act like that had just deleted 4 years of my secondary school experience. There goes, along with it, memories such as preparation for the SYF, organizing Speech Day and school performance, talking outside the classroom after recess and all other memorable experiences. I felt that it robes the sense of belonging of ex-students to the school.

Sigh~ Whatever it is, I am in no position to influence the decision. All I can do is to wallow in my own thoughts. Perhaps one day, Bowen will be the top 10 secondary school in Singapore but my secondary school will still be the ordinary neighbourhood school that accepts mediocre students and exposed us to non-academic experience which is more useful in life."

Was so bend-on downloading my maths revision paper and completing it tonight, but for whatever reason, I simply can't find it in any folder. I think I should do some other tutorials then.
It was a simple fare of dinner. Short. Simple. Perhaps like what I told Christina when she asked, "You hang around with us (older than me) too much later you become how?" No worry. Like what I told you, I always have this "youngsters" with me to balance things.

-Sign Off @ 3:58 PM :)

In a World of Our Own

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Again, I've been rather quiet today. Even people who don't really know me told me that.

Walking in the rain was cool. Most of the time we were too busy, rather preoccupied to notice anything at all, besides the routine that we inevitably face. When we are on our way to school, to work, most of us will be in stoning mode. To state that pleasantly, we are in our own world --- catching a wink, listen to whatever's plugged to our ears, reading. If we were in a rush, perhaps what we really care is, "Are we there yet?" Hmmm, of course, if I'm late and on the cab, I'd simply asked the driver how long it is going to take to reach and after that if the driver strikes a conversation, I'd very much try to carry it on. For some strange reasons, I get "discounts" off my cab fares for that. My two-cents are worth pretty much more than just two-cents afterall. Call me a slacker or someone who's easily distracted, but most of the time I simply couldn't resist when something, a small detail, catches my attention, even if I'm late.

Perhaps it's weird of me, i'm not sure how many people do notice that --- I can recognise some of the commutters who board the same train or bus as me. When my dad drove me to school, along the expressway, sometimes there were carcasses, I'd muttered a prayer for them. Along the way to campus, if i'm on a non-airconditioned bus, i do like the morning breeze and the morning scent along certain parts of the journey. A pretty car. A magnificent house. A tree. Someone who dresses weird. Anything, can simply get my attention.

No wonder Jo said my blog's melancholy.

HAPPY20th BIRTHDAY TO YOU
BL

-Sign Off @ 11:46 PM :)

Hurt

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

A nice but kinda overly-played song. Can't deny that she just got such deadly fantastic vocal for this song. Having watched the concert of her singing this song is simply cool. Of course, minus the point that she forgot she's wearing a dress and the way she sits.

Hurt
Christina Aguilera
Back To Basics (2006)

Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
But I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
'Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, ooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself..
By hurting you

These 3 verses caught my attention....

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
'Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

1day. 17days. 1month & 17days.

-Sign Off @ 10:31 AM :)

My Long List of Stuff

Sunday, January 07, 2007

A list of stuff that I mind/ not mind getting.....(hint hintz)

I mind...
Ornaments
Soft toys (have more than enough to hug)
Bags (still got 4 newbies)
Shoes (3newbies pairs of heels and 1 pair of boots)
Wallet/Purse (still have enough)
Clothes/ Accessories
Novels

What I simply want is...
1. a meal with my buddies, just like the sec sch days when i celebrate my birthdays.
Is that a lot to ask for? Perhaps.
2. a cup of warm chocolate and cake and chill and chit-chat.

I thought of getting...
3. a Levi's top, but none of the design got my attention.
4. a watch, but none caught my attention either.

I don't mind...
5. someone opening an account for me with 10k or 100k in there already.
Cool. Ha, that was just to fill up the space.

Oh and to end it all, I won't mind if someone gives me my dream car for my birthday. My only motivation to getting my license.

-Sign Off @ 10:30 PM :)

Aquarius

Thursday, January 04, 2007

According to The Straits Times, today's horoscope for AQUARIUS:

Your willingness to appreciate the absurd (and to be absurd yourself) is one of your most endearing traits. Your loved ones know how lucky they are to have a true individual like you in their lives.

Hmmmm well people, now you know what a precious i am and how lucky you are.
Jus out of curiosity, what do they mean by appreciating the absurd and being an absurd....

I'm rather quiet today. Weird.

-Sign Off @ 1:57 PM :)

A New School Term for many

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Thanks to Lynette & Shawn, I learnt how to play mahjong. We only played for about 5hours cuz it was rather last minute that they decided to drop -by my place. Interesting game. Learn as you play. Now I know one more activity that I can involve myself in. MAHJONG. Of course, I'm no expert. Just a beginner player for fun. Yup.

Dear Jo met me today to go town and she was so persistent on meeting her @ her NUS Law Campus which was like a very long walk around Botanic Garden lah. Anyway, we found an umbrella dispenser. Interesting. Kept us occupied for 3minutes.

Azhar sent this at 7.02 am .
" First day of school, you'll see so many new faces. The scared P1s, the nervous sec1s, the newbies in lond pants sec3 and the what-to-expect J1s. Haha..We're so over all of that..And new school bags."
What else can I do but to agree with that. The last time I wore my school uniform was in college 2years ago. That was when I was like 18. Now I'm going on to my 20th birthday in like 24days. That's like so superb fast. My first day of kindergarten, primary school, secondary school, college were over.
Hmmmm, something that I never forget when it's "First day of school"...
1) The first day I entered Bowen, my sec sch, I went up to Mrs Kumar (many know who she is right) and asked, "How do I get myself transferred to another school?"
2) @ SRJC, I never knew I'd meet so many friends there with such beautiful memories. Of course and Michelle who I added on friendster before even knowing her and later found her in the same class as me and now friend.
3) @ MJC. Got to attend another orientiation. HA and Valerie, my sec buddy, my OGL. Coincidentally, out of 8 of us, 4 in MJC, 2 in AJC, 1 NYJC, 1SRJC. Hmmm when 4 of us were really into poly in the first place.

-Sign Off @ 10:35 PM :)

2007

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

MY 2007...

1. My up-coming birthday, of course, and the rest of my buddies' too
2. Pass my exminations with more than just passable grades. Something decent to satisfy me. Geez
3. Build-up and maintain ties with my family and friends
4. Keeping everything tidy and very much organised
5. Phantom of the Opera!!!
6. Get more novels and books on anything that capture my attention --- Melacholy Death of the Oyster Boy
7. Update myself with global news more often
8. Get a new phone
9. Earn as much or save as much $ as i can, without any opportunity cost (enjoyment, studies)
10. Be myself, MEOW!!!

That's all for now.
Will update pic on my days and time spent on new year later

Hmmm for my campus-mates, just a gentle notification that there's an advanced exam timetable that's out.
Mine:
279 0002 Introduction to Economics 09 May 10.00–13.00
279 004a Statistics 1 (half unit) 10 May 10.00–12.00279
005a Mathematics 1 (half unit) 14 May 10.00–12.00 279
0025 Principle of Accounting 18 May 14.30–17.45 279
0024 Principles of Banking and Finance 24 May 14.30–17.30

Others (most of my friends take this modules):
279 004b Statistics 2 (half unit) 10 May 14.30–16.30
279 005b Mathematics 2 (half unit) 14 May 14.30–16.30
279 0010 Introduction to Sociology 15 May 14.30–17.30
279 0107 Introduction to Business and Management 22 May 14.30–17.30
279 0011 Introduction to International Relations 01 June 10.00–13.00

-Sign Off @ 6:27 AM :)