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2006/7

Sunday, December 31, 2006

Well, it'll be 2007 soon, like in some hours time. This year, 2006, has been a very eventful one, and a year when I learnt lots of stuff, on my own.

Perhaps I was so used to the type of life I've been leading for the past six years, seeing the same people almost everyday of the week, enjoying my breaks and lunches and even dinners with them, not feeling the day's been fulfilled if anyone of them not in school, the quietness without them, the urge to dig some staff-room rumours and secrets out of each other. If not, we'd still be able to say hi to each other along the way to lectures, attending the same lectures, get chairs kicked, annoyed. If not, at least at times we'll still be able to get together for a meal.

Perhaps it was all the reliance that I have been always assured of that made me a little afraid and weird to step into a new environment on 02 August 2006.

Perhaps things didn't get bad on that day. Vividly, i remembered the very first day of my campus life, no longer does classes and lectures start @7:50am, no longer do we have to sing the national anthem, the pledge, the school song, the announcements --- any assembly. Something we'd always wanted to "enjoy", something that we dreaded and complained. Yup, even during the college days, to skip the first couple of lessons and "chores" (PE and stuff), we'd self-declared sick and would be late for school. I'm no angel, I did skip lectures and tutorials too. It just seemed so "in" and inevitable @ that time.

Perhaps then I'd classroom that belonged to my class of people, no longer do I get to enjoy that now. In my campus, we have lectures and tutorials together --- meaning to say, lecture-mates = tutorial-mates. A lot of people. Maybe 100?

Perhaps it was the type of life that I'd been used to since I started schooling decently. Lessons end at 5pm, not 12noon. Maybe there are people out there who think that having to school only 3days a week and 4hours per day is a blessing. It's rather otherwise. No more spoon-feeding. Really. If any of the college teachers ever mentioned that they haven't been spoon-feeding us then, I'd not believe any. They lied. So much independence is required and discipline sealed. Reference books --- go find them yourself. Extra help --- send an e-mail, if not pray you'll be genius overnight. Skip lectures --- get your grave ready. Hmmm, have I made it sound scary?

I remembered that one of july entries where I mentioned about the fear of going back to a school, returning to a school, stepping into a totally new environment. I told myself that morning, smile. It's not that difficult to make friends afterall. I'm friendly. Just say hi or simply nod. It was a little scheming of me on how I have my very first friend of that day, and subsequently, some of the rest of them. Then, there're third and fourth degree friends, friends of friends, and the network just go on and on. Being in this environment is somewhat similar to then when I entered my secondary school, yet there are still differences. I entered secondary seeing some familiar faces and of course, some friends whom then we loved to quote as "best friends". Yet, over here, no one knows me. Yes, some did say they've seen me in college, meaning they are my schoolmates and thanks for the acknowlegement, yet the rest have completely no idea who I was. They only know who I am, perhaps, even who I simply want to be. I don't know, at least on my part, I'm interested in who they are, not who they were. The people I hang out with these days simply do allow me to feel the comfort of doing whatever I want. Perhaps, it's like I don't care what they really think. I just want to be me.

Perhaps that's what we always known as changes. Perhaps I did change, or perhaps I'm changing. Perhaps, now all of us are at different places, we distanced, more than ever. Perhaps we are maturing, no longer the innocent kiddo.
Once, my dear friends told me how much they miss me (really, they told me that), the days we spent, the meals we had, the nonsense, the comfort, the talks and how much they are trying to adapt to now. Hey, girls, you can adapt, no worry. We've been breathing all along and will continue to survive well. Same to you boy, "playing" with mud in the rain and forest-ing. And to the other boy, enjoy the operation theatre and table.

And a joyous "HI" to all my new friends. Thanks for anything and everything so far. You've made my campus life so much more meaningful than anything I'd ever imagined. I've learnt and still learning....Thanks all. Oh and thanks for tolerating with my "meow" (or cat") attitude, as some would say.

I miss everyone, very very very much. Time flies, no one lied about that.

Merry Merry Christmas.
Happy New Year.
Love you people so much I really wish I'd hug you.

-Sign Off @ 10:27 PM :)

Where Do Broken Hearts Go?

Saturday, December 30, 2006

Ok, let this be the last song of the year. Just simply wanted to post something and heard this song. It's nice the way she sang this.

WHITNEY HOUSTON
WHERE DO BROKEN HEARTS GO?

I know it's been some time
But there's something on my mind
You see, I haven't been the same
Since that cold November day
We said we needed space

But all we found was an empty place
And the only things I learned
Is that I need you desp'rately
So here I am
And can you please tell me

Where do broken hearts go?
Can they find their way home
Back to the open arms
Of a love that's waiting there?
And, if somebody loves you
Won't they always love you?
I look in your eyes
And I know that you still care
For me

I've been around enough to know
That dreams don't turn to gold
And that there is no easy way
No, you just can't run away
And what we had was so much more
Than we've ever had before
And, no matter how I try
You're always on my mind

Now, here I am
And can you please tell me

And, now that I am here with you
I'll never let you go
I look into your eyes
And, now, I know
Now, I know

For me
You still care
For me

-Sign Off @ 12:58 PM :)

Gathering @SG

Friday, December 29, 2006

Had a mini-gathering with some of my friends couple days ago. Perhaps @times it's just who we are with that no matter what programme we have planned or initiated didn't go as well along. Even though I'm already penniless, it doesn't bother me even if i have to spend. It's just that there are every single opportunity out there for anyone to earn money, so grab the opportunity, but it's not all the time that we are able to organise, or even initiate such gatherings. More often than not, nowadays, each of us have to do more than what we did more responsibilities, perhaps even changes in individuals. Upon the recollection talks about past school days, things are so much more different now. The innocent and carefree days have ended. Perhaps sometimes we feel the burden, the tireness too. Dinner @ Seoul Garden was my second buffet dinner of the week. No more such dinner for the next 4months okie.

I know that those were the days. Innocent and carefree we might say. Yet it was "those days" that allowed me to go through everything and anything now. Knowing that you are around. Believing that you are still around. Tireness and tears, no more. As long as I know that you are there.

Thank You.

-Sign Off @ 12:53 PM :)

BOXING DAY

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Ok it's Boxing Day, so kids, everyone, rip the wrappers off your gifts!!!
When was the first time you came to know about the existence of Boxing Day, the day after Christmas, 26 December? I first came into contact with Boxing Day when I was about 6 or 7 over the radio. Interesting was the first impression and from then on, I always leave whatever gifts I received for Christmas till that day. Well, I'm of no religion link to Christmas but it's just the indulgence in any festive scent that I really enjoy.

How did I spend my Christmas. I went out with my sis, with the sole aim of just getting an item that I need. Yes, it's a necessity. So we went down PS, having the some gift coupons that our aunt gave and gotten what I needed. However, before that we gotten a skirt each already. After the two items, i got another top from Dorothy Perkins. And after that we went somewhere else where we got two tops each.

My newbies in my wardrobe.....
Denim skirt, nicle designed and patterned
Polo Tee
D.P. Top
Tank Top
Heel boots

Ok, now I'm so guilty. I'm so broke now. Simply, it means NO MONEY. Ok, I promise that I'll be as thrifty as I can. I will....

-Sign Off @ 2:45 AM :)

Love Actually

Monday, December 25, 2006

Say it's carol singers
With any luck, by next year
I'll be going out with one of these girls
But for now let me say,
Without hope or agenda,
Just because it's christmas ---
(and at christmas you tell the truth)
To me you are perfect
And my wasted will love you
Until you look like this
Merry christmas

Sounds familiar? It definitely does, for those who watch LOVE ACTUALLY. I don't know but it's such a must-watch movie for me during Christmas, ever since the release. Simply and lazily I lied at the sofa and enjoyed the show, with no disturbance from anyone, anywhere. Well, of course besides sms-ing. It was just simply funny, simply simple, simply love.

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS
TO YOU
& YOU & YOU

I can't rem whom I've sent a greeting msg to. To those who thought I've forgot about you, very much you are not.
Enjoy this Christmas.
Soon, it'll be new year.

-Sign Off @ 3:33 AM :)

Joy of Sharing

Sunday, December 24, 2006

The season of giving, and giving.

The joy of giving.

I would say, sharing.

Well, let's put things in order.

Take a peek into 2 of the gifts I received. Of course, there are more like Eugena's chocolates and cards mailed to me too. What's Christmas without sweets and chocolates, and cards.

These are from Karen and Christina.

Well, definitely, I did give too, to my "old" buddies and new friends. Just that my "old" friends have yet to receive since we won't be seeing each other till this tues, 26/12. I'm savouring thr chocolates while updating this and with Christams songs and carols played.

On Saturady, I had a very fulfilling day with my campus-mates. Hmmm, it sounds like a starting line of an essay.....nvm. So nice was the Tom-Yum lunch @Kitchener Road (I think) and the steamboat-cum-bbq dinner @Marina Bay. Yummy Yummy Yummy. Lectures --- Lunch --- Movie ---Dinner. Yup, though I went off earlier than the rest, I knew I enjoyed myself so much. They are so much fun, not forgetting the joke of the year, Curse Of The Golden Flower.

Ohh and throughout the Saturday, I had this feeling that I 'd meet someone I know, maybe a friend. I was right. On my way home, at the train station, I met Seng Kim lah. So long didn't see that guy and not to worry, he's still as lame as ever. ok let's be nice and say funny, not lame.

Well, in some hours it'll be Christmas eve. Perhaps, this year I'll be spending Christams alone. Hmmm......

What's Christmas without chocolates and sweets and love.

You departed on 22 Dec 2004. Just days when I returned from my Yunnan CIP trip.

Bless you.

-Sign Off @ 12:49 AM :)

HELp

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Dear all, to whoever that reads this. I was on my campus web account when I saw this e-mail in my inbox.

Appeal for eye witness to accident on 29 Nov. 2006

Dear students,
One of our students, Hoe Jing Hui, was pinned down by a taxi on her way home from SIM on Wed, 29 Nov. The accident happened at 9.55pm at the junction between Jalan Anak Bukit and the turn-off to the PIE/BKE expressways. She was on a scooter and died within minutes. The family is appealing for witnesses to come forward. If any of you saw what happened, please contact Sylvia Yeo at 62489698 or sylviayeo@sim.edu.sg. It is important to the family that there is proper closure surrounding Jing Hui's death.

Thank you.
Student Care and Services

I'm not aquainted to her in any way, just praying that if anyone witnessed anything about the accident will be able to make a report.
Praying.

-Sign Off @ 10:09 AM :)

Caught My Attention

Saturday, December 16, 2006

Extract from Hinder, Lips of An Angel

<< I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And i never wanna say goodbye

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes i've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight >>

Simply caught my attention.

-Sign Off @ 3:39 PM :)

Work

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

With the "O", "N", "A" Levels over, students are job-seeking all over. Yup, not forgetting, Christmas and all the festives coming too. A very significant year indeed, last year.

Students, now at the age of 16 looking for jobs after their exams, when my group of buddies and I, then, 3years ago, were still playing our hearts out. We hung around at each other's house, playing board games, badminton, just simply hanging around (people called that bumming). None of us worked. Come on, after major exams everyone deserves (a) break(s) right. Geez.

My sis was working for some weeks after her "O", age 16, and I was recalling to myself that my first job was at 18, officially, I've worked for one year, aprroximate exact I supposed. Via the job-hunting agency (easy way out), I found my first job for the Christmas season, and then, known the barkery manager who got me and some of my friends, my second job for the Chinese New Year. Trust me in saying this, the seasonal (festive) assignments are the fastest way to earn a very reasonable wage. Money. Significantly, I had to work till 12am on one of that days and I had my birthday spent like that, with lots of surprises too, from Ching Har and Eileen and someone else, and of course, not forgetting receiving a call singing happy birthday, the following day with Corrine May's birthday song played for me on the phone. After that I took a very long break, months, before some other jobs, like at my uncle's store. That was all then till now.

Geez, I'm a little slack like what some'd say. I just want to do stuff that I like now, really, regardless of the pay. When it's still possible for me to do so. I'd say, so far, I am enjoying myself, a lot. I've known and seen many types of people, and believe me when I say my temper's so much in control. Changed.

When I told my friends that I'm working they are like, "Again?" meaning to repeat. One was like, "Can you believe that this girl work?" Another was like, "You're sure that you work?" Someone went, "Thought you only know how to shop, to spend."
Really. I've always thought I don't look like someone who splurges, not waste money on unnecessary stuff. Well, I really don't. Misconception. People, misconception. Miow's dad doesn't own a bank or company and her mum doesn't sit at home and print money, and neither does she.

Ohh, another interesting thing. One of my uni-friend commented that I was and looked dao, hopefully not am. Dao, meaning arrogrant. Hmmmm, do I? It's not the first time I got this comment already. In upper primary and college days there were people (now friends) who told me that too. Well, I mean you don't go smiling at everyone along the corridor nor do you just simply tap the unknown person in front and smile, on the first day of school. It's okie I guessed. I am not dao lah. It's just me being me, miow being meow-ish.

Hmmmm, that's all for now.
Till then.
Time flies.

-Sign Off @ 10:27 PM :)

Phantom of the Opera

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Upon getting notice from my friends that there're hints on the dates for the exams, I attempted to find, only to realise it's the dates for this year. So smart of me. And as usual I'm always not the first few to know about the dates. Well, knowing the rough dates means I got to start preparing.

So, perhaps from January till then, no one and nothing shall disturb my mugging-mediation-period except for my birthday, some other people's birthdays (very important), important gatherings, and of course, check this out...

Yup, I didn't tell my mum about the ticket price and, well ya she did find out by herself. Let's just say it slipped my mind. My parents were on the verge of nagging at me when I just simply flashed an innocent smile, and they knowing that I spent my earned money, understood. Spot the price. So worth it lah. It's not a all-year-round thing that I get to catch really fantastic musicals and plays. Call it a splurge, an indulgence. Call it LIFE....

7April 2007. Saturday.

The Phantom of the Opera

I'm waiting. Even have in mind what to wear already. Geez.

$135 excludes all other charges, a lot of charges. Geez.

Till then, again, I'll and must study, no matter what. I do study.

-Sign Off @ 3:37 PM :)

Cool

Monday, December 11, 2006

On my way to school, by bus some 30min ago, I saw this superb cute guy. Irresistable, yup. That's the word. So cute that I simply couldn't resist turning my head to take a second and of course, third glance at him. He got the perfect complexion for a guy, even better than ladies. Sharpest nose I've ever seen. His features are so perfect. Face well-chiselled. Features impressingly engraved. And last of all, the faint scent of cologne that added the perfect touch.

Alright, that's all for now. Gonna attend a meeting. Should I? Of course lah.
I simply couldn't resist smiling when I saw him. That's it.
A perfect day, I guess....

-Sign Off @ 4:22 PM :)

Gifts

Sunday, December 10, 2006

My new shoes --- sandals and heels and heels

Not forgetting my COCO KELEN, The Waterfall, London Style bag.

Thanks alot.

PS. i didn't pay for anything.

Geez....

-Sign Off @ 10:27 PM :)

Battle of Wits

Caught the movie "A Battle of Wits" 12hours ago. Exactly. Supposedly, Friday is spent studying with Christina while the guys play soccer, but I just simply couldn't resist the desire not to study that day, hence, I gave the suggestion of going for the movie, DeJa Vu. Have no idea why we ended with A Battle of Wits --- a mandarin movie.

Hereby, I'm proud to announce that that's the second mandarin movie which I caught in the theatre. Hmmm, actually after figuring that out, I think I ought to include the other 2mandarin movie --- I Not Stupid and I Not Stupid Too. That makes this the fourth then. Well, we watched it @Junction 8. Been long since I last caught a movie there. Let's see, the last movie there was Ju-On, with Azhar after CME exam. Hahahahaha, and as usual, I was freezing in the theatre.

My Two-Cents Worth:
I think that at times people just make themselves sound so nice and generous and as if they are the ones who don't mind dying when they say, "I don't want anything in return, at all." Come on, human beings are just human beings afterall. An intention is an intention, a motive. In that show, the male lead wanted to spread "universal love" (and at the same time, gather people, rather influence, to spread the msg), but he said he wanted nothing.
Ha, well, that kinda sound a little pun-ny and extreme. To be more objective, it's a worth-watch movie as long as you don't mind parts of the philosophical talks that they engaged in. Inevitably, the male lead is so so so so smart lah. It's like ohhhh, who can ever think of that. The strategies that he employed on handling the attacks. COOL.
2-and-a-half to 3 stars, i'd rate.

-Sign Off @ 12:28 PM :)

NOV

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Let's see what I did last week. Last week of November 2006.

1) Lectures.
2) Self-study. Yup, proud to say that.
3) Audience participation in a singing competition held in campus. My friend was in there and won first runner-up along with best performance (which is weird cuz none of us and himself knew what he had done to achieve that best performance). Followed that was supper and cab home-sweet-home for some hours of sleep before lecture again. Well, it was just plainly worth it.

After the competition there was this lucky-draw thing, and rather amazingly, out of the 10prizes, 3 belonged to us, including the undiscovered ticket under someone's butt too. It was all the fun and laughter.

I don't know why, but somehow I like this group of people.

4) Dinner with a friend on saturday. Due to me saying, "I want to see the lightings @Orchard", he dragged himself along with kiddy-me there. Again, kiddy-me won a bet that it'd not rain that night. Stake was ice-cream. What can I say, I once studied geography. Geez. An Anderson's ice-cream and the lightings and the dinner-hunt made my saturday. Well, there was ice-cream.

Yupz, so for now, it's moving on to december 2006, the final month of the year. Such unbearable feeling to leave another year behind soon. It's like I'm going 20 lah.
Till then.

-Sign Off @ 1:25 PM :)